letters to a

i. dear a,

i'll have you know that i saw you today,
and i'll have you know that your face burnt itself into me

ii. dear a,

your angles and corners would mix greatly with my curves
(and by greatly i mean awkwardly, and by that i mean perfectly)

iii. dear a,

your face just seems to keep coming back for more,
and i'm running out of that

iv. dear a,

i don't know what is happening,
but i hope it's going to break me (because i need that)

v. a,

i honestly don't give a fuck about you anymore

vi. dear a,

maybe i do love some of you after all.
(because my bipolar disorder and your schizophrenia get along greatly)

vii. dear a,

i'm going to be perfect
it won't be easy
and it will be your fault

viii. a,

i honestly don't know why i even bother thinking about you

ix. dear a,

you are the soundtrack to my life's soundtrack.

x. dear a,

i love everything you do
have hope

xi. a,

i forgot how you're supposed to make me feel

xii. dear a,

i remembered
and it's completely amazing

xiii. dear a,

when i meet you i'm going to take your hand
and i hope you won't mind when i forget to let go.